A big thank you to Sandy from Sandycademy for nominating me for
The Sunshine Blogger Award
The rules of the Sunshine Blogger Award are to nominate eleven people and to ask eleven questions.
Here are my answers:
What is the most important thing to you?
My husband and my “family” of pets. They are with me day in-out and day-out. They support me in my best and love me at my worst. My dogs snuggle me when I’m sick or in pain, and they never judge me for being ill. However, without my husband, there’s no way that I could continue to keep fighting and searching for a diagnosis all these years. He is my strength.
If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be?
Anywhere with a beach. I miss the ocean! I miss the smell of the sea air when the wind blows, the warmth of sand between my toes, and the taste of salt on my skin. It reminds me of all the good times in my life.
What’s your favorite thing about blogging?
Being able to share my story with those who are interested in “listening” and being able to connect with others who go through similar challenges related to both mental and physical illness. It’s given me more empathy to others and the understanding that although our chronic conditions may not be the same, we often struggle with some of the same experiences or feelings. Not to mention, all the love and support I receive from people who TRULY understand what it’s like to be me.
What’s your favorite thing about yourself?
My ability to be persistent, despite other’s trying to shut me down or discredit my feelings. When I was young, I gave up too easily and let other’s walk all over me. I’ve been through a lot in life, perhaps more or less than others, but what I’ve learned in this journey is that the only one who will fight for my life is me and I’m not willing to let it go that easily anymore.
What has been your biggest challenge in life so far?
Learning not to get overwhelmed when everything seems like its falling apart. Although I don’t give up on my quest by any means, I often get frustrated and angry with the process. I know it’s normal to react to this amount of stress, I just wish it wouldn’t bother me as much.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not love at first sight per say, but the initial feelings that come deep from your gut that tell you that this person has come into your life because they are exactly what you need. That you both met at the right time and in the right place; and now that you have them, there is absolutely no way you could ever let them go.
Where do you see yourself in ten years?
I use to be a huge “planner”. I had so many goals and dreams, but the one thing you learn very quickly from chronic illness (especially when the illness advances within a short period of time) is that you never know what to expect from day to day, let alone make any type of plans. Plus, being sick changes your dreams anyway. For instance, I used to dream of having a successful career so I could buy a nice house on a huge plot of land so that I could rescue a ton of animals. Now, I just want to be alive… and have a confirmed diagnosis, the ability to manage my symptoms, and have a decent quality of life. I also want to bring awareness to the problems that are created by doctors in leaving patients without a diagnosis, while hopefully helping others along the way.
How many languages do you speak?
Fluently, only English. I’ve taken classes in Latin, Spanish, and Chinese but I never retained any of it. I wish I spoke Russian, though.
What do you think is your best post so far? Link it.
My favorite post thus far has been The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had because it’s so raw and real to the emotional pain and all the frustrations that come with being so sick for so long, without ever knowing why.
What’s your favorite quote?
I love all inspirational quotes in general. However, many years ago I came across the following and vowed to live by these words, both in life and in love. When you’re young, it easy to be selfish and less understanding of other’s feelings. Now I work to treat others how I expect to be treated and build up others whenever I can because I know what it’s like to feel pain.
“Maybe...giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don’t expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours. Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy. Maybe . . we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift. Maybe . . when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don’t even see the new one which has been opened for us. Maybe . . it is true that we don’t know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don’t know what we have been missing until it arrives. Maybe . . the happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. Maybe . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can’t go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures, and heartaches. Maybe . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do. Maybe . . there are moments in life when you miss someone — a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child, your girlfriend/boyfriend — — so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more. Maybe . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had. Maybe . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone. Maybe . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives. Maybe . . you shouldn’t go for looks; they can deceive; don’t go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one who makes your heart smile. God determines who walks into your life….it’s up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little..”
If you could recommend one fellow blogger for me to follow, who would it be and why?
This is such a hard decision as there are so many great blogs that I follow that provide different knowledge and experience. But I do agree with Sandy in choosing Indisposed and Undiagnosed. Not only is her blog well written, but she has long been searching for an accurate diagnosis as well and it’s easy for me to relate to her on a personal level because of both the pain created by her symptoms and the problems she has endured navigating the healthcare system.
Here are my 11 nominees (in no particular order):
- Indisposed and Undiagnosed
- Finding Life’s Silver Lining
- Carrots in My Carryon
- The Medical Student
- Living to thrive
- Dear Hope
- Chronically Sarah Lynn
- Diary of a POTS Girl
Answer the same questions as me…Congrats everyone! 🙂